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Tonight the tinnitus in my left ear fills the entire side of my head, much louder than I'm used to. Usually if I am listening to other sounds the ringing fades. But as we watch television the internal noise roars on.
It is as if I am tuned in to a wavelength set just for me. A music only I can hear. Unfortunately, I cannot choose to shut it off. I can't not listen.
Perhaps I can tune in to it, use it the way others use white noise to find relaxation.
My follow-up MRI is scheduled for January 15th. Hopefully it will show the neurosurgeon what effect the gamma-knife radiation treatment is having.
If you see me dancing when there is no apparent melody playing, don't be alarmed.